I'm not sure why.

2010-05-28T02:42:00.005+08:00

I guess this is the only place i can pour out how i feel, i dont keep a diary, neither have i someone to talk to. I'm in a relationship, its been 2 months , YAY! No doubt im really happy, at times euphoric; not the normal euphoric in class or how i used to be in camp, but happy im with you that im euphoric. But im not sure why, this moment of happiness is sometimes short-liftted everytime i think how i never seem to get these feelings back. Am i going too fast? Or is it that im giving it so freely that you're numb to it? im not sure. Everytime i see you smile, my heart melts, when u hugged me, my whole body melts, when you said you love me face to face, i thought i was in heaven, but i only felt it twice. So special i could remember it like its happening right now. Could it be that i needed to do it rarely to make it more special? it hurts me really when at times all i needed was you embrace or hug to turn my frown upside down or to help me forget all my toubles, but most of these times, it was either people were looking, our friends were there, elders are at home or something preoccupied in your mind, i get shunned away. feels like im hugging my pillow, the sensation felt very different, at least my pillow wouldnt push me away or evade me while i try to show my affection. im not sure. maybe i should tone it down somehow, but its always so hard to control. Im curious, do you feel the same way i do everytime i hug you, kiss you, held your hands, call you baby or look at you? i hope you did. So, even if i didnt kiss you, hug you or say "Good nights~ love ya ^^" it doesnt mean my feelings have faded, its because i love you so much, i want you to enjoy these moments so much more and cherishing each one of it like i do. i know that for doing this im selfish, but im doing this hoping these little actions would mean to you much more.

im meeting you later again, whats new.. lol.. dont misunderstand, dont over interpret or read too much into the line. its not meeting you that is hard, not at all, actually, i take pleasure going to meet you, always looking forward to it, it just never gets old =] but, its the rejection from you im afraid i cant handle, most of the times my advances backfire. this time, i shall restrain myself, wont know if i can until i try.

its late, you slept 2 hours ago, i cant sleep, but i had to, somehow, i have to try.

Thou you would never read this, and beacause you wont, i can say this a hundred times now.

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Bowl o' Kurry

I'm not sure why.